the art of being still.

Have you ever been stuck between feeling accomplished and unaccomplished? Grateful to be where you are but slightly disappointed in where you should be? Have you ever felt like there was more work to be done?

I’ve always thought of myself as a hard worker, determined, go-getter. One of my favorite nicknames I coined myself from a young age was “Boss Britt” - a woman with a lot going on, hard to reach, unavailable but busy, always on the move.

It is hard not to see myself in this light. 

I want to run my own multi million dollar company by 30.

I’ve always been the most critical of myself and recently realized how much I tie what I do to who I am. I can't even begin to scratch the surface as to how frustrating this part of life has been for me. How much my worthiness depended on how much money I made or the role I wanted to have, “honor student, captain of the step team, supervisor, boss, wifey…

With titles brings claim, with claim brings a form of honor and solidification that you are what you say you are! It is not till recently, in this chapter of my life, that I've been learning the art of being still, patient, and content with where I am now.

I’ve been learning to be more grateful for how far I've come. How much I've made things happen for myself but I find myself always in pursuit of a new life, next steps, or new journey. 

It is during this time where I'm learning the most about myself. Looking back on the time I sat in the audience of a Taraji P. Henson’s event as she talked about black girl joy and the importance of mental health, she spoke about finding your inner child and learning to tap back into that person.

I used to love performing arts; dancing, cheerleading, stepping, physical activity.

I want to get back to those roots of doing what I love, feeling in tune with myself and truly seizing the day and what life has to offer.

While in this season I’ve been reflecting on the woman I truly want to become and how to manifest the life I want for myself. Lots of self talk, daily affirmation notes, good mood playlists, sex, and GRACE. 

Learning to love me in every season. Be your own cheerleader.